爱太痛!

Feeling: Lonely, upset

Tomorrow having O level Mother tongue paper. I'm stress about it. Really very very stress i can't study in anything, can't sit long infront of my study table..... RAWR!!!!!!! SHIT SHIT SHIT! Alone at home again today, felt freaking lonely lah. No one is accompanying me, my house is so quiet. Damn weird and make me even no mood to study! NO OOD NO MOOD NO MOOD!!!! BAD MOOD BAD MOOD BAD MOOD!!!!

Where have you been, not use to it when u never text me felt damn freaking weird and make me think and think and think. Don like it or maybe you have the _ _ _ to talk to you already? Maybe you are just happily talking to him and forgotten me, anw seriously speaking i also not your any who. I can't control who you wan to talk with or force you to talk to me. NO RIGHT! IMPOSSIBLE! Just that i feel like you don need to find excuses or what. You can just tell me what! Hate ppl lie using excuses! Sometimes your text will just cheer me up the whole day, but i think now you are talking to him ba! If im not wrong. Maybe the _ _ _ _ just made you 2 to be more close, but maybe im just over protecting you by not letting you to get hurt. And im also afraid to see you get hurt, because i care. But do u care???

It's okay. I shall slowly slowly to get use without u beside me. Coz i know u might go anytime. And won't be back as close as now. :(

Trying not to think too much noww! Can u text me? :(

Nothing to eat at home! :(

Understood!

Yeah thanks. I understand wad u mean le, i'm just only a guy which u can dump aside anytime anwhere, depends on your feeling. Okay it's okay! Im just use to it by this type of things. Thought that our relationship could last longer and stronger than anyone, but it doesn't seems to be anymore.

Wisdon. Compassionate

Hi everyone just came back from temple. When there to listen to some teaching and offerings, basically i did learn things a few things there and is quite usefully in daily life. I should apply it more. Okay! Anw o level chinese is coming in a few days time, not really did all the preparation but only 1/4 done! I really need to buck up man!

I've read all the model compo that teacher gave us, it is good but it is so damn long.

shitty!

Then went hospital, studied there and i realise it is a good place to study kinda like it,

but i dunno why my brain will be telling me, u study not enough must study more! I think this is stress ba! Dunno?

I NEED TO STDY MORE AND MORE!

My handphone just sux lah, when i wan to text is so lackkiie, and i press the send button sometime cannot send one, then i thought already send. When will like why the person never reply? But fact is i didn't send it. SORRY FOR THOSES PEOPLE RECEVIED MY TEXT LATE! SORRY SORRY!

I wonder why i never deleted that song from my itouch, i felt hurt whenever the song is playing. Flash back of your image, maybe i just can't forget you and maybe thats the song that u love to sing on the phone, and also maybe is the last precious memory u gave me. I don bare to let go of you! Im still holding on the the memory.

You seems to be drifting away from me liao. Am i being too sensitive or what?

Im Really Tired Of It!

I think im lacking of sleep. Im seriously very very tired. Have mother tongue intensive today and seriously speaking i didn learn anything from there, i only know that the teacher is scolding and scolding making me super piss off. Dun wan teach don fucking teach lah get loss lah. Shout shout shout think she very big like that! cb! I really can't stand it to have sucha teacher. Was trying to listen although my eyes are already going to close.
Im really piss! I think i study on my own is better then wasting time going school having wad intensive! USELESS LESSON!

After intensive walk around the school awhile. Saw ppl! I dunno why i saw her i will still have the feeling, is so damn hard to know, everyone have been conselling me but still..............
hard to know wad happening. Feel like toking to her, but............
O Level chinese are coming and i really cannot be distracted by this type of things already, i need to concentrate. But i just feel like looking at her.
Grandpa is still in the hospital, he is my everything i love him to the max. HE MUST MUST RECOVER!!!
There are alot of things bothering me. Im so vex! I need some break orelse i will break down one day. I still have chinese paper to do and some revision for myself. I wan to score a A1/2 for O level. Therefore i need to study real hard for it. Tired.

Feeling like seeing you sometimes. Sorry is hard to forget you, you went in to my heart easily but difficult to let u out.

Kinda piss off day!

Went school today and the ground is wet so have to stay in class for morning assembly. Stand at the stairs to take pledge as we had not enough time to go up to our class. hhahahas this is not the 1st time also. Anw V&V have been used to show about DR GOH KENG SWEE tribute, then we was told to write some comments for him. Then some stupid people said "Teacher we write already, u going to pass it to him ah?" OMG!!!! Is like.....DUMB! And she never notice wad she had said wrong. Then, the teacher reply" VANESSA YOU KNOW WAD IS TRIBUTE?" haha... sucha dumbass.

Kinda upset over some results which i expect to get higher. Like... POA, MATH?? My poa really really made me damn upset. From A1 to C5 lehyyy!!! WTFFFF!!!!!!!! I cannot accept this yet until now! Is really a very very big hit on my head. SHARKS!!!! O LEVEL CHINESE IS ROUND THE CORNER... and im no prepared! MYE had just over and O LEVEL CHINESE is here liao..... time really pass so fast this year. I think i will fail comb. science sia, i have done quite well for Phys but Chem really pull me down alot alot. If only phys my mark will be B3 sia... although is not awesome but is much better than fail. CHEMISTRY JUST SUX! Pull my science mark down so much! RAWR!!! damn unhappy about it....

Just came back from swimming training, was not tiring at all lo seriously saying! haha just go there and play play only! hahah.... Sianzzz tmr got math tution sia! I hate tution manz! :(:(:(:( How going to face my tutor with a E8 result?

No matter wad happen!!! Neo wen Ching(Daughter) daddy will be always beside you to support you! LOVE YOU!

Pathetic Day! (Just leave my blog if u don wan to read)

I kinda of hate today. Kinda of disappointing result i gotten back. Some improve, some deprove. Kinda of upset for the result. I have improve Com.Hum but deprove math and english! Chem i failed as usual. :( Math Math Math seriously im damn sad about it, I dunno why i will get this type of result. FCUK!!!! Partly because Miss Lee CW mark our paper lah.... she is damn strict in marking! OMG! Haiz...Today i seriously dun have any any mood in anything lah. Fuck up! Saw someppl today and dunno why it still affect me! I seriously don like it. Feel like going back to the past, at least can have a chat with you or something but now i can't even don anything!!! I really have tried before to let go but giving myself a lot of work to do but u are still running up and down my brain. I know we are like impossible but wad can i do??? I seriously dunno. AHHHHHSSS i feel like shouting everything out now. Things are just inside my heart and is sufforcating me, i can't breath.

Im now also worried about my freaking result is super bad. How? I also dunno wad to do now? Feel like giving up sometime when no one is around me to support me when i fall. I can motivate people but i cannnot motivate myself, putting on a mask walking around is not easy as wad u thought. Trying to force out a smile and hang it there is also very difficult for me now. Im not in the freaking right mood today. Im sorry to ppl i dao today. And O level chinese is getting closer and closer, and im seriously kinda stress up already! Tired :( have psl meeting went there show face then went off. Slack around until 5.30 then the evening class starts, teacher bought pizza and i ate 2 slice of it, is was my lunch and dinner. I got eat at least something oh, hope my daughter see this won't scold me. My daughter is a fierce girl! Will scold daddy de and daddy will scared she scold also. Anyway she also never scold me recently le. Okay shall stop here ba. bye.

Maybeyouhavetoomuchgansandkindanelgectedme. whorox?ithinkyouhavetoomuchsecrethiding.Shouldn'twefaceittogether?

我不开心！

WHAT HAPPEN WHAT HAPPEN WHAT HAPPEN????? CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT HAPPEN??? :(

Hot & Cold~~

Life is full of obstacle, everytime u overcome an obstacle there will be another one infront of you. There is no such things that after u pass this obstacle and there will not be any infront of you anymore. However, after every obstacle you have overcome, you grain more and become more mature in handling other problems. Don blame why there are so much obstacle. Anw i got the quote from somewhere "Life isn't about what happens to you, it's about how you handle what happen". Yeah it is seriously damn true, don try to run away or hide somewhere when u need to face it. Face the fact and relality! When u feels that you are vex about things in your life, the best way is to talk to someone. Listen to some opinion.

Anyway today had the last paper for MYE. Finally can relax abit already:) Went KTV with friends yeah was quite fun overall. Headed down to Plaza Sin to find something but i culd find! :( Then went down to TTHS to visit my grandpa, which was admitted in ytd with a minor stroke. Lucky is not as serious as the previous time. I realise TTHS has upgrade u know! Last time visitor need to queue up to register to visit ward. However now there is thoese machine somehow like MRT that time. Just Scan your IC and you can go in liao! haha is like dman high -Tech! Singapore developed country ma!!!! hahah.... Ate subway for dinner! Yummy! Back home 2131 hr. Coz when i reach home i text daughter to tell her. Standard de okay we reach home mus tell one another de! Sweet ehy!!! Don jealous i have a sweet daughte like her! XD

Icantforget you!Howwadshouldidonow?Ujustcan'tgetoutofmyheadandkeepwantingtoloveyouihatethefeeling. Andievenhateitwhenyouareclosetohim :(

I never study chemistry!

Hello people! Hahas. Im in died shit i didn't study much for my chemistry sia!!! HONG JIN IS DIED! hahaha..... anw went IKEA yesterday again! Have an idea of putting my badges up into a frame and put inside my room, to let myself see my own achivement. Yeah... more badges is coming up!!! haha so went to bought a big frame to put, wahhaa and it succeed man! Came home around 10+++ then bath and start doing the badge frame. Finish everything this morning! COOL! The pics below is my swimming and lifesaving award frame! :D

Ohyeah one last thing! 我非常非常爱WENCHING 女儿!!! She's abit worry for her result recently, it's gonna be okay de lah don worry okay daughter? 雄心万丈，成功不难!!! okay!! Daughter rmb this must CHEER UP CHEER UP!!!!

Bronze, Sliver, Gold, Goldstar, Lifesaving1, Lifesaving2, Lifesaving3, Bronze Medallion, Award Of Merit, Bronze Cross, CPR Resuscitation, Senior CPR Resuscitation. :D

Hahah the badges!

Yeah went swimmming training ytd! I was as fun as usually, and i was the bad guy that always bully ppl! ;) hahas.... Anw i injured my fingers while bing the victim, i didn't notice the wall infront of me, and i just crush into the wall with my fingers. It is still very hurts now! :( Rope throwing competition ytd, actually we are the 1st de. But i and my partner didn communicate that well, so he nvr pull the rope back. Then i thought he cant get the rope, so i recoil the rope that time he say he caught the rope liao. So, when i pull him back that time we was 4th! Gotten 20 push up for punishment! :( Then 2nd round i be victim, my partner was the resucer! And u know wad! OWNAGE!!!!!!! WAHHAHA WIN THEN BY SUPER SUPER ALOT! HAHAH!!!! yah! okay going tution soon sian... oh yah my mummy say if this time my a.math still CMI she will sent me to tution! :(:(:(:( I dun wan tution!!!! Haiz....sian!!!! My finger hurts!!! :(

Anw this phragraph is pointing fingers at someppl! I freaking dislike u when u are like a dog keep following others, pls lah stupid ass! Just get loss lah! BHB guy think yourself really very cute like that! Is like OMG lah! U are making me PUKE only! SERIOUSLY! Super digusting and er xin! Only act and act only!

Exams are not over for me yet! :(

Haiz super bored recently. Study, eat, sleep, fat! I seriously graining weight.....NONONONO cannot grain weight! Must go gym after MYE is over. :D

haha! Anw today paper was ok for (Physics/Chem) and sux for a.math!

I sleep for like 1.5 hr at the examination hall. Opps!

I HATE CHEMISTRY MAN!!! I SERIOUS CAN'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING. Haiz....

I am going to be crazy after my MYE have ended!

I WANT TO GO WATCH MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going to tution soon liao, damn bored, so bored and very bored! How how how?

Webcam with daughter ytd! Was damn fun can!

She looks funny on webcam lah. But nvm 我喜欢!!!!

Hahaha was showing off my potato chips, chocolate, vitagen and foxs to her!!!

Don jealous ah!!!! DAUGHTER!

And she got like hell lot of sweets, later eat until she bogey! No Teeth! XD

我爱女儿！女儿是顽皮的女孩!

ExaMS Suckzzz!!!

Yucks don like exam! Stress! Sometime i will study late is not call ling shi bao fuo jiao. I am just doing revision before tmr! Can't i? So u mean exam period on nid do revision lah! Ass! Anw wasn't doing well revision ytd, cannot sit down on chair to study. Today math P2 is difficult heard a lot ppl complaining, i don have enough time to finish. :( so i just pick question i can easily answer de to grab more marks then try the harder one! Haiz... not very confident lehy!!! Sianzzz... Yeah POA paper2 just now, hmph the paper can be done lah. Not say very difficult or easy lo! I chiong all the way and when i finish the paper liao i realise that i still have 40 mins left, staring at the sky, looking around, talking to teacher. haha thats wad i do. haha!
Tmr having A.math paper! DIE LIAO DIE LIAO!! I think i will sleep sia... hehehex POA paper 1 is tmr also! Stress Stress Stress!

Daughter is bad too! Daddy is good good good guy! Daughter(L)

Tiredness!

haha short post today! Anw thanks daughter for waking me up from my nap! Was damn tired so went to sleep. And she so good to wake me up after 45 mins, haha. SHE SPAM ME 6 MSG & 2 CALLS. I pick up the 2nd call, and i was still giddy giddy. Then i didn't her wad she say, then she cup the phone liao. Then the next min i "PONG" down on my bed again liao, i while later keep forcing myself wake up! haha... THANK YOU DAUGHTER! 谢谢女儿!!! 爱你哦!!!

Tmr is the start of MYE le! WISH EVERYONE GOODLUCK & PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS!!!! ESPECIALLY THIS PPL, CHRISTINE MEI & WENCHING DAUGHTER!

School Reopen after long weekends!

Back to school today! Kinda of boring ya. Coz alot of teacher never come and is like exam period liao lo! The time when students will be the most attentive in class. hahas. Anw Lesson was boring to the max, i need a math teacher who likes to give us other school paper then after we finish she will go through if us! But our teacher now is like kindda sux. How they expected students to get good result with their lousy teaching??? Haizzzz exam period is really very very stress for me. I nid to studyy but i can't study how? The weather is damn hot and i dun like ittt!!!




Wad to do if i still can't forget you? When i heard people talking about you, i dunno why my mood will sank down to the bottom. I have never felt like this before, loving you is hard. Can you tell me how to climb out of ur love trap that you have set? Wad can i do now? I feel hopeless without you by my side. I can't do anything but to think of you. I tried to forget you but i can't. If time could be rewind to the day we never met maybe my life will be better then now. Wad can i do now is to blame myself from falling into ur love trap without knowing the consequences.

The Weather is really killing me!

Hi everyone back to blog. Finally im not that lazy to blog, haha anw the weather recently is really sucks like hell manz! Sooo hot and warm! GOBAL WARMING. The ice in antatica is already melting. Stop wasting electricity people! Save the earth.

The hot weather now serious make me can't study now, anw i am those people who can't study in the afternoon. I can only study at night and morning! haha :D Gosh....MYE is getting nearer and nearer as well as O level chinese. Im so tired!!! I wan more rest and time seriously.

Anw i went IKEA yesterday! Bought alot of things. I bought a new study chair, a white cup, photo frame and a pillow! wahhaah... going to put some nice photo into the frame and place it at my table. I going to decorate my room myself after i finish my O's! Im sick of my bedroom arangement i will change my room 180 deg. After finish renovating i invite u all come my house party kay! wahaha seems cool, gotten some ideas while walking at ikea..... cool TTM! But now must concentrate on O levels 1st! After O levels i will go crazeee! hahaha...study study study everyone! okay going to stop here! bye bye~~~

Chair, Photo frames, Cup and Pillow!

Went ASTON to have dinner on........... forgotten liao! :D


I still can found this pics sia! It is 2008 national day celebration.

Im the flag commander, bringing the flags in.

Slow march!

Berhenti! (stop) and they folding the flag!